Consuming and tiring and exhausting -yes. But fun and wonderful and I dare say easy. But man it has seemed so HARD lately. Mostly with our oldest- Brody. Not even 8 yet and I just endured a hugely dramatic protest of swimming lessons- it would probably be in close comparison to me protesting shorts deemed inappropriate when I was 15. DRAMA. It ended in rather lofty threats of no birthday parties and extra chore duty and him crying and saying sad things like how much he hates his life and that we are not good parents and that we are screwing everything up- Devin practically carrying him to the car for swim lessons. Here's the other baffling aspects
Of the whole thing. He LOVES to swim and is good at it and he wasn't doing anything fantastic that he got yanked away from to go. So I'm siting here wondering what in the world just happened?? And then thinking about some deeper meaning to his protest of swim lessons. My poor brain and stress levels and everything. This is hard. It's not just the swimming. He has had more and more moments of difficulty lately. Angry and dramatic and kind of a brat and torments Zane non stop. So I thought that some additional structure would help solve those things.. And here are making a full circle to not having a flipping clue what to do! He does so SO well in school. In every aspect. Attitude and grades and socially. I am truly grateful for that.. I think. I mean I rather he save up his awfulness for the privacy of our own home.. I think. I've read so many parenting books throughout my career as a not so well seasoned mother. Yes they all offer some good insight and new techniques but nothing has been a solve all. I know it could be a thousand times worse. There are kids out there with serious damage and issues- this is minor. But it still
Isn't fun and it's still concerning and I still feel like it is problem that needs to be solved. Hormones? Already?? I have no idea. Birth order? Probably. Being the oldest is a tough gig- there's some huge expectations and responsibility and pressure and your also the guinea pig to parents who have no clue what they are doing. Dangerous waters. Heaven helpe to not screw up my children. Amen.
I think I have done a lot with Tucker that I will never do again.... I hope I haven't screwed up my kids either lol.... your a great mom! and it is tough!! but let me tell ya it doesn't get any easier ;) good luck and I hope things go more smoothly... I tell myself all the time I have 5 kids and I still don't have a clue what I'm doing :/
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